Aug 29 2019

What can I profit from coming to these Table Talks (profit in this sense reminds me of Gide’s diaries)? Do I just…

June 23

F.’s birthday. I have two lives: my mind’s life where I think and imagine, and my social life as a father, partner,…

Saturday (last day of August)

Tomorrow, I finally submit to Brick.

Reading Thanh’s memoir discomfits me. It reads like one version of what I have written.

How should I…

Aug 30 – Friday

Book review:

psych exploration of past.The conclusions reached in therapypresented for what?the present tense “Today . . . ” Does it open or…

29 – Thursday

Yesterday while watching F. clean-up before we left her grandparent’s house. Grandma passed colored blocks asking F. to name them before she…

Monday 26 Aug

“What I did had stakes, but reality rarely intruded, and when it did, the consequences were light, so that it would be…

Sunday

The only grip I maintain on my reality – this. Everything else a fight. The habit of women distracts me. My life…

Saturday 24

(I deleted a passage, because I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings).

Kingsway Massage: make it an Am I the Asshole OR I…

Aug 21 Wednesday

Habit can facilitate work. No doubt it can also deaden the soul or experience. Habit makes the world habitual, and so only…

Thursday

Movie opening:

Fucking Guy One (FG1): Dude that girl’s hot man.

Guy Two (G2): Woman.

FG1: Woman.

The woman strolls across the screen. The two guys…